Friday, November 30, 2012

What causes this pain?

Behind the smile and the laughter that I do each day lies a big fear inside of me. I am hesitant to tell the exact feeling to my family as I don't want them to feel anguish about it. I have decided to write all of these things as a way of letting go of the sadness. How I wish that  the pain will go away too. Yes, I've been in pain for more than a year now . A fact that I kept on denying to myself.  It was exactly one year after my last C-section delivery that I have experience this discomfort. At first, I did not consider my C- section deliveries as the cause of these:
* severe abdominal pain
* sever lower back pain and pelvis pain
* severe constipation causing painful bowel movements
* severe bloating
But if I can still recall it, it started when a severe pain strikes my lower abdomen (area of incision), exactly 3 months before my youngest son's first birthday ( Sept. 20, 2011). It was a double sharp pain on my lower abdomen and pelvic area. Which I thought might be just an early sign of primary dysmenorrhea since I am near my period. But as the days goes by, pain became worst . Worst than what I have expected. To the extent that I can no longer do normal things that I do every day. So simple things like standing and sitting. I cannot stand  nor sit for a long period of time. The feeling is like "a very sharp and hot strike hitting my lower back, pelvic and abdomen areas". So with that, I knew it is no longer caused by a regular dysmenorrhea. I know it is more than that as I never had painful periods before I got my kids, not even after I had them. I have to figure it out. Sooner or later  I have to answer my HOW and WHAT and WHY questions.  I have to know if C-section is really the one causing the pain. It might be too late for I already had 3 consecutive C-S operations which drastically changed my LIFE.  But it is not too late for me to help you. Whether it is the one causing the pain or not. I don't want you be in pain. Pain that might steal a lot of your precious time. We have to believe that PREVENTION is  really better than CURE.
TO BE CONTINUED...
Have you ever had the same feeling of discomfort? Share it! We might be able to help each other.Let's learn on each other's experiences. Any thoughts will be highly appreciated.